A Story of Self-Healing

by David Lloyd, GNM Clinician

One day, last August, I woke up with my right foot in such intense pain I couldn't walk on it. I know I hadn't hit it, run into anything, or tripped off a stair step in the days before. I was puzzled and surprised. I usually wear flip-flops on hot summer days, but I knew I hadn't tripped up in those either.

I woke up with so much pain I couldn't believe it! It was the second and third metatarsals that connect to the other foot bones. I had to get a knee scooter — that's how much pain I was in. I felt stuck at home.

The third day, the pain moved to the medial metatarsal. How odd, I thought. Now the inside part of my foot was in excruciating pain. What is going on?

In GNM, bones, tendons, cartilage, and muscle are all controlled by the Cerebral Medulla (White Matter) part of the brain. The Special Biological Program (SBP) is related to a Self-Devaluation Conflict (SDC). There is tissue loss in the first phase (Conflict Active Phase), followed by cell replenishment and pain in the second phase (Healing Phase). Unfortunately, with bone, the skin around the bone (Periosteum) has a nerve plexus with a multitude of nerves. The stretching of the periosteum along with this nerve plexus is the reason we feel extreme pain in the healing phase of our bones.

I was definitely feeling extreme pain! I tried to recall when I had injured my foot in my life. I knew I had sprained my right ankle twice, but those are different bones from the metatarsals.

Around the 7th day, the pain went down to the joint between the metatarsal and my big toe. So now I was even more curious about what was going on!
I recalled what I was doing the evening before the pain started. I remember trying to book a flight for my summer getaway and my brand new debit card was suddenly declined. I felt “stopped in my tracks, stumped”. The account was practically brand new and had funds, why was it suddenly declined? Why can't I go forward with this? I felt surprised and agitated. After all, it was a brand new account. I had to quickly find another card to use. On top of that, the trip was the vacation spot I have been visiting in California for several consecutive summers. Why am I being stopped? Could that have been my DHS or a track my psyche fell on? Maybe the pain I felt will go away by the next day? I wondered if I had found the Biological Shock? It must have been when the SBP was initiated. Here is another big puzzle piece: The previous year I was out in California, my then girlfriend accompanied me. More about her in the next paragraphs.
I started to recall if I had ever hurt my right foot. Then I remembered in the previous year, I had a friend whom I began to realize was likely bipolar according to her behavior. She would be on top of the world for a few weeks, and then she would suddenly go into fits of anger for a few weeks without any warning right out of the blue!

One evening, I couldn't tolerate the anger she was spewing at me and told her I was going out with some other friends for the evening. She kept insisting that she should go with me. I told her she would have to change her attitude, but that didn't go over well...she immediately started yelling, screaming, and began calling me names. I decided at that moment that she was suffering from a major mental imbalance. She had all the typical behaviors of someone with bipolar disorder.

I finally said, “I'm leaving!” That's when I saw her knee rise in the air, and then I suddenly felt excruciating pain in my right foot when she forcefully stomped on it!
Who behaves like that?? I felt insulted, attacked, and disrespected.

Fortunately, I had regular shoes on, and the pain subsided within a few days.

After recalling that evening, I thought for sure it would release my psyche and that my foot pain would start to heal.

Unfortunately, nope! I still needed to use my knee scooter and I was stuck in the house for another week.
Bones damaged by a SDC or broken bones usually take about 6 weeks to heal, so I counted 4 more weeks on the calendar to have something to look forward to with the reassurance that I would soon be healed.

My turning point came in the middle of the third week — a light bulb went on! I asked myself whether there was any other time in my life when I had hurt my right foot?

In GNM, we refer to our psyche as having layers that store old memories which sometimes serve as a protective mechanism if they aren't readily available. It's like: “Our psyche has layers like that of an onion, and we peel off the outer layer first.” Once the outer layer is peeled away, our psyche will access older memories. That process allowed me to remember an incident involving my hiking boots!

My memory took me way back to eighth grade when I wanted to have a pair of hiking boots. After pestering my father for several weeks, like any annoying teenager, my father agreed to buy me a pair of hiking boots. However he bought a cheap pair of hiking boots at a discount store. Nonetheless, I thought it was cool to have such big boots to wear to school and it empowered me because I was another inch taller!

We all experience embarrassing moments in life. This may seem like a story from a typical sitcom, but this is how it played out:

The very first day I wore the boots to school, another kid approached me in the crowded school hallway and asked me, “Are those steel-toed boots?” I remember being puzzled because I didn’t even know boots came with steel toes... I said, “What??” But he didn’t answer, smirked, and suddenly stomped on my right boot, laughed, and disappeared into the crowded hallway. How crazy and I hardly knew the kid!

Talk about being taken by surprise by something UNANTICIPATED! Definitely a biological shock, a DHS (Dirk Hamer Syndrome). With my tail tucked under I limped to my next class with pain in my foot.

Fast forward to last August and my painful foot. I had forgotten about that school hallway incident. But once I remembered the story again, and the humiliation, insult, and disrespect I had felt that day, and recalled everything that had taken place, within a day and a half my foot pain completely went away. I was walking on my right foot again, as if nothing had ever happened.

I felt a sense of relief, a lightness, like my body would float in the air. It was subtle, but I was feeling it!

Some people, when they identify the conflict, they have tears well up in their eyes! I felt it! I released and resolved my conflict.

THE COMMON THREADS...I had been STOPPED, SUDDENLY NOT ALLOWED TO MOVE FORWARD (RIGHT FOOT IS MY LEADING FOOT), FELT INSULTED, DISRESPECTED, SOMETHING BRAND NEW THAT SHOULD FUNCTION BUT WAS REJECTED, STOMPED FOOT (TWICE), CALIFORNIA VACATION, GIRLFRIEND (PARTNER), and SCHOOLMATE (QUASI-PARTNER), and I THOUGHT LESS OF MYSELF IN EVERY CASE. It was a typical self-devaluation conflict (SDC)!

Conventional Medicine calls this sudden turn around a “remission or a spontaneous healing” because they are unable to explain it. I could finally go shopping and get out and walk around. The foot was still a little stiff for a day, but who cares? I could walk again!

It's amazing how layers of memories build up over our life that we sometimes need to peel away, like an onion.

I hope by reading the GNM Chronicles that you are learning the basics of GNM.

Hopefully it will lead you to understand how to resolve your own issues.

David Lloyd’s Health Issues

Resolved and ALL Healed through understanding GNM.

2014

Lost my voice for 4 days
→ I was insulted by a family member but said nothing back out of fear, a “Fear of Repercussions Conflict”

2016

Right shoulder went out
→ Wife left the marriage; shoulders react to “I’m a bad partner” or “I’m a bad mother, or child to my parent” depending on handedness, my right shoulder is my “partner” side
Flu
→ Moved out of the house to an apartment; felt like I was left for dead by my soon-to-be ex wife, “fear for my existence conflict”

2017

Head cold
→ “Stink conflict”; realized my wife was already seeing someone, also my psyche was no longer smelling her in my life
Angina pectoris several instances
→ After divorce was finalized; lost my marriage, lost my wife, lost my home, all “Male Territorial Conflicts”

2018

Gout (right foot)
→ After the divorce; feelings of low self-worth after I lost my marriage, started when I was visiting my mother. Lasted 3-4 days. “Self-Devaluation Conflict (SDC)”

2019

Gout (left foot)
→ Again, while visiting my mother, my mother was very critical of me and my life. Lasted 3-4 days. “Self-Devaluation Conflict (SDC)”

2020

Hemorrhoids
→ “Identity Conflict”; “Who am I now?” that my business went empty with the pandemic hoax

2021

Sprained knee (no surgery, healed completely)
→ The Propaganda of a “Pandemic Second Wave”; Couldn’t move forward with my business; couldn’t go in the direction in life I wanted; why is the government fooling the population?? “Couldn’t move forward conflict; couldn’t go in the direction I wanted conflict”
Torn meniscus (no surgery, healed completely)
→ Couldn’t move forward with my business “Couldn’t move forward conflict; couldn’t go in the direction I wanted conflict”
Torn MCL (no surgery, healed completely)
→ Couldn’t move forward with my business “Couldn’t move forward conflict; couldn’t go in the direction I wanted conflict”
Facial swelling / bumps
→ I couldn’t get over feeling devalued because clients didn’t return, and I was embarrassed to be on crutches, “Feeling Soiled” and “Self-Devaluation Conflict (SDC)”.
Forehead acne
→ Feeling devalued while visiting my siblings; stories from our teen years kept coming up, “Feeling Soiled” and “Self-Devaluation Conflict (SDC)”.

2022

Nosebleeds
→ Snubbed by a woman and felt insulted; she moved in six doors down, same floor, same building, and I had no idea. “An Insult Conflict” and “Wanting to be Separated Conflict”

2023

Skin mole (1 cm wide, hairline — healed and disappeared) See Images
→ After 25 years of embarrassment; stemmed from feeling my “integrity was marred” when a female friend surprised me with a kiss on the side of my head in front of my then-girlfriend. “My Integrity was Marred Conflict”
Colon healed from overgrowth
→ Bright red stool early morning, woke up profusely sweating, no pain whatsoever; happened the morning I was about to catch a flight for vacation. Vacations are often a time of release of things stuck in the psyche. The psyche will often relax and resolve conflicts while you’re on vacation. “I’m finally free from all the stress I have been enduring!” “Indigestible Morsel Conflict”

2024

Chest cold
→ Got spooked by a police officer pulling up behind me and following me for half a mile; connected to a past incident at age 16 when a police officer pointed a gun in my face, “Fear/Fright/Existence Conflict”.
Excessive ear wax (right ear — flushed out)
→ Kept wanting to hear from an adorable friend I wanted to date; a “Waiting to Hear” conflict
Testicular SBP (Cancer SBP)
→ After my mother’s death, and recalling when my ex went through a miscarriage — two profound losses: I lost a child, and 10 years later, I lost my mother. “Profound Loss Conflict”
Chest cold
Colon healed from overgrowth (second time)
→ Bright red stool in the evening, middle of the night, and morning; no pain whatsoever
Stomach Aches
→ “Undigestible conflict” — something hard to stomach or digest, figuratively or literally
Bleeding gums
→ Self-devaluation of the teeth and gums “Self-Devaluation Conflict (SDC)”.

2025

Sore throat
→ Fear of repercussions if I talked back “Fear of Repercussions Conflict”
Colon healed from overgrowth (third time)
→ Bright red stool in the evening, middle of the night, and morning; no pain whatsoever
Sprained foot
→ See story above
Nasal passage completely blocked
→ “Stink conflict”
Chest cold
→ Got spooked by a half-flat tire in sub-freezing weather; fear conflict about not knowing if I’d make it home. “Fear/Fright/Existence Conflict”.